Picture of the Day: My Weakness

Yesterday some crazy shit went down. I don't feel the need to re-iterate it, as it's being handled legally and on the basis of copyright infringement. But I did get called all manner of nasty, horrible things, mostly related to my weight.

It burns me because I try to do everything right. I'm on the diet prescribed by my doctor and nutritionist. I'm on medication to help with my hormonal imbalance and my insulin disorder. I walk everywhere. I jog five miles a week (more when it's warmer), I dance and do yoga daily. I chase the dogs and cats and play with the baby and pick her up and do all manner of physical activity while cleaning the house.

 I'm trying to lose 90 pounds, not because some jackasses on the internet think I'm too fat, but because I need to feel healthier. I want to be the girl I used to know. But with those health problems, losing weight is a near impossibility. In fact, the reason I gained those 90 pounds in a 3-month span my sophomore year in high school was because I was on the wrong medication for my insulin disorder. And they've stayed around ever since.

But sometimes you've just got to say "fuck it" and indulge your sweet tooth. So I've got a four pack of Cadbury double chocolate eggs that I fully intend on finishing today. I had two yesterday to make myself feel happier and take the edge off a headache. Today's are purely meant for enjoyment.

So there's your little peek into my life today - chocolate, it does a soul good. -Squeaky