So today has been relatively full of strife and awfulness. Love got into it with my husband, both came away with hurt feelings because they both felt disrespected - Love because she was only trying to help and the mister because he didn't like being felt like he was being ordered to do something. And I got caught in the middle, naturally.
Then the baby would not go to sleep - she's not used to her dad being awake or around in the morning and that kept her up ALL morning because he doesn't know how to do anything quietly or calmly to get her back to sleep. I dread the day he becomes a stay at home parent because he lacks the skills, and then puts me down because I DO know her routines but he thinks he knows more because he's been around more kids. Well: newsflash: playing with her during her first morning change and bottle means she WILL stay up. If it weren't for me, she'd never eat solid foods because he doesn't have the patience required to work with her through the distractions and moments where she's digesting. He just gives up.
Add to that a sudden onset ear infection from using headphones that weren't mine and cramps/bleeding that should not be happening and I am a very sad, sad creature today.
So I loaded myself up with decongestants, some honey and ginseng tea, put on "Bones" re-runs and settled down for a nap. Of course the landlord next door doesn't know how to keep his music low, so my ear was pounding until I fell asleep.
And then the nightmares started. Nightmares of losing people I love, including my Mistress. Nightmares of being alone, nightmares of trying to make everything work and failing miserably.
Right now I just want to be cuddled.
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