30 Days of Submission: Day 25

25) Are there items, objects or rituals that represent or help you express submission? If not, have you ever thought of adding or being gifted one? Is there a special significance to these objects or rituals?
One day I hope to receive something from my Love to represent my submission from her, but I don't expect it any time soon. I have a long way to go in meeting her expectations, as evidenced by my recent actions. One of the rituals I engage in is, obviously, posting to this blog each day. Another that I just can't help is that she's the last thing on my mind before bed and first thing on my mind when I wake up. Each day I hope to be a little bit better for my Mistress and not be a disappointment. -Squeaky

Picture of the Day: My Goofy Dog

If Sprocket waiting for a doorbell to ring doesn't make you smile, I don't know what will. -Squeaky

30 Days of Submission: Day 24

24) What are the emotions that most directly let you access submission? What feelings do they inspire?
The positive emotions that most directly let me access my submission are love and concern for my Mistress' well-being, to know that her needs are being met and that I can adequately meet them and if I can't, to try harder and give more. The negative emotions that lead to me feeling more submissive are jealousy and fear. Fear of abandonment, jealousy over others who CAN meet her needs. Again, they all inspire me to try harder to be the best I can for her and her life and her needs. -Squeaky

Picture of the Day: View From My Kitchen Window

Not because I'm making you a sandwich or anything, Love. Just because I wanted to show that it was snowing and I was miserable about it. I was going to go for a long walk today, take your Other Daughter to the park and get some sunlight, but as you can see that just isn't gonna happen. -sigh- ~Squeaky

30 Days of Submission: Day 23

23) Is there anything about submission (yours or what you see in others) that you question, dislike or repels you? Was there a time you questioned or were resistant to your own submissive feelings?
There are some that I worry about - those who take it to the utter extreme. Then again, I'm a very self-reliant, fiercely independent person when it comes to my life. Right now I'm struggling with letting my Love know when I'm depressed and why I'm depressed - and right now my depression is something that cannot be helped, regardless of efforts. I cried myself to sleep last night, wishing she was here. It's just heartache and it's something I'm used to and will deal with on my own - I just wish I didn't have to.

Picture of the Day: This Right Here....

Is the person on the planet who makes me the happiest. IT'S NOT CHEATING WTF I GENUINELY GET ALL FUCKING CRAZY OVER YOU!

30 Days of Submission: Day 21 +22

21) Is there a physical position that makes you feel most submissive?

I honestly feel most at home on my knees. That's where I'm comfortable and that's where I feel most submissive. The rest of it is just gravy.

22) Can you feel submissive without a dominant partner? If so, how does your submission express itself? If not, how do you handle your submission or submissive feelings?

It's funny, because the answer is yes. Whereas my Mistress's need to save the world and take care of everyone manifests in a dominant nature, mine manifests in a submissive nature. I volunteer, often to the point of my own detriment, and I help out those who are close to me. It makes me feel better and gives me a sense of purpose. Without a sense of purpose, I tend to just drift aimlessly.

_Squeaky